Something has been eating at me, for as long as I can remember and with increasing magnitude. It is this sensation of genuine, lingering discomfort when it comes to drawing, during artwork creation as well as during elementary practice sessions. The most severe ramification of this affliction has been an extensive hiatus when it comes to most things artistic. My dread of drawing overshadows my love for the matter, and I keep making up excuses for putting art aside - "I am more of a programmer anyway", "work and family is more than enough", "I need to start working out first" and so on. Yet again, I return to DeviantArt, realizing that my last "motivational entry" was written over a year back. The question arises - will I EVER become good at this?
While things appear rather gloomy, I might have found a solution to my predicament, and it all started when I stumbled upon this Youtube video called "Iterative Drawing - The Fastest Way to Improve", by Sycra: [link]
Much of what is discussed in the video really resonated with me - especially the part about the balance between analysis and intuition. Shortly put, analytical artists tend to approach art in a structured manner, relying on tutorials, guides and/or references, while intuitive artists have the ability to create good art without necessarily being able to explain their process. This is certainly a simplified way of categorizing people, but being extremely analytically biased I started to realize what my problems might be.
Problem one - Cheating!
Looking back, I have pretty much always "cheated" at art - I have relied on grids, references, tracing and pretty much every technical shortcut there is when it comes to everything from realistic portraits to manga art. Being somewhat versed in 3d modeling, I have preferred creating 3d models and tracing them, rather than actually Learning figure drawing. While this has smothered my ability to draw comfortably without any of the aforementioned methods, it has lead to me producing things that people seem to find qualitative (people pay for portraits, I sold quite a lot during my only exhibition etc.), thus leading to a vicious cycle of me adhering to the path of least resistance to gain both real and virtual "likes".
Problem two - Problem solved!
Being analytically inclined, I tend to like problem solving, and I have regarded art as a problem to solve, rather than a life long journey of self improvement. I spend pretty much no time practicing, and way too much time figuring out how to cheat most effectively.
Lifting the curse!
Given the situation I have described, I think the solution might be easy. I simply have to drop any pretensions of creating good looking art, and pick up a habit of drawing basic stuff on a regular basis, avoiding the cheats I've grown accustomed to and get a lot of mileage. This will undoubtedly lead to a decline in apparent quality of my work, but at least I can seek comfort in the fact that whatever quality I manage to produce will be the genuine result of my own skill (or lack thereof), and not artificially procured by taking shortcuts. This will be my analytical approach to become more intuitive, and I hope all goes well!
/Styrbjorn